Literally-historic diwali!

thats the summary of my day- a new blogpost coming soon about how beautiful the day was!

The little dove.

I have a dove.
it's a good comrade.
It sits next to me and whispers with its eyes.
Its peaceful, and simple.
I feel happy and secure.
It looks slowly in another direction.
I smile. I love the dove.
It suddenly tries to fly.
I hold on, tightly. Afraid to let go.
A sudden fear.
the dove looks reproachfully at me.
I loosen my hold.
I let it go.
and it flies away into the sky.
I look at it, and try to smile.
It swoops near me. And then it vanishes in a blur.
It comes and goes as if to give me comfort.
And now its just a haze.

"If you love something, set it free. If it comes back...it was always yours."

Durga Puja-expedition!

This year literally is my year of firsts. Be it Rakshabandhan, Janmashtami, or Durga Puja! I expect to celebrate Christmas in true style too.
So I set off for the Pujas today, and practically looked at the day through Bengali eyes. There was actually a ten percent of me which wished I could be a Bengali. Only ten percent. :D
We visited three Pandals, all in CR Park, which surprisingly seemed within short walking distance of each other. And, by this time you might have guessed I am not much of the physical fitness type. But nevertheless I think I ploughed on decently, till the third pandal. By the third pandal, I was huffing and puffing.
Each Pandal was beautifully and lavishly decorated, and I really appreciated how beautifully everyone was dressed. When I heard the comparisons between Durga Puja in Calcutta, and in Delhi, I suddenly wished I could see what Calcutta was like at this time of the year. I gradually learnt more about the Gods as I visited each Pandal, and I underwent the ritual of Pushpanjali thrice.
There were so many things to observe, and I felt as I was part of an entirely different world altogether. Not to mention, I loved hearing people speaking in Bengali. I think I'm a wannabe Bengali :/
We stood in a long line for the food (there is a specific name I am not sure how to spell, so I won't dare try). I usually detest standing in lines, and I'm the first to stamp my feet and groan. However, for once (and luckily for my friends) I didn't mind at all, and kept myself entertained by watching people on the stage, and listening to the announcer who seemed obsessed with making sure no one dirtied the chairs.
The food was quite good, and I felt rather stuffed. I had already eaten prasad from the other two pandals. Yet amazingly, that did not stop me from devouring magnificently made fish. When it comes to fish, or rather any non-veg, I don't think I draw any lines!
I enjoyed the day so thoroughly, despite the fact that by the time we left the third Pandal, I was dead on my feet. I even ate a Chuski, something I've eaten only once in my life. I finished it off like an ice cream, and tried to palm it off to my friends to finish off the water, as I was already choking. Nevertheless, I made it half-way through!!!
To say the least, I think I'm going to go again next year. I loved everything about the day!

Faces and Voices

She looks around
She sees a whirl of familiar faces
They whirl around her in a blurred haze.
They whisper
But she can’t hear them.
She is too drained.
She can’t understand.
She closes her eyes.
She can hear them.
She knows a few tones.
Some distressed, some angry
Some indifferent, some commanding
Some soothing, yet not so soothing
Some brutally attack her for sins which she had not committed.
The whispers become loud voices which come crashing down upon her
They now are in complaining tones
upset, and worrying her.
But she doesn’t know what to say.
Her anxiety rises.
But she tries to keep a calm stance.
For them, she tells herself sternly.
But her voice is lost amidst their voices.
her words of comfort, wasted.
The voices never ask how she is.
The voices don’t know the unsteadiness she feels.
The faces vanish.
The voices stop abruptly.
Its quiet.
Its all dark now.
She can’t stop them from breaking
When she herself is breaking.

Looking for the rainbow.

There's a rainbow out there somewhere
it's a little hard to find
but I'm sure if I walk through the dark clouds and rain
I'll find it.
the path to it maybe hidden
But I won't mind.
because I know its out there
no matter how discrete
I'll just keep walking
I'll find my way out
even if its alone and cold
there's that little hope and faith
which will be my faithful comrades
I won't let the clouds win
I don't want to wast time and hurt the clouds.
I just want that rainbow.
I'll find it.
and maybe then I'll see the real sunshine too.

Pensive

sitting at my desk
chin in hand
I had certain reflections.
about life.
how lucky we all are.
why whine about petty things
which could never happen
and never will?
why be remorseful about things of the past?
why hurt continuously about shallow things?
sometimes
when you're faced with the worst situation
or put in somebody else's shoes
you see things differently.
and that's how I feel right now.
to make each day count
to make every day worth it
to appreciate what we have
to appreciate who loves us, and what we love.
we need it all.
dealing with the situations and circumstances
no matter how painful.
because you have people with you.
strong support systems.
courage, and strength.
lets love what we have.
and look beyond the superfluous
superficiality of it all.
there's so much more.
so much more.
and keep it all close.
cherish them.
because the ultimate grief is
when we lose them.
lets keep them close.
keep them close.
and make each day count.

I know you.

Pride.
Pride and pure happiness
engulfs me.
A tear of pride.
I'll always be proud of you.
Your talents make me cheer.
Your brilliance brings on happiness
Your complete and utter devotion to passions
I'll always be proud.
I know you'll go a long way
I know nothing will ever stop you now.
I know you'll see the sun, the moon and stars
I know you'll sail through it all
I see you, as I've seen you before
I see you in everything you do.
Respect, and praise
is less than what you deserve
You deserve fame
you deserve honour
you deserve love
you deserve it all.
I'll watch you carefully
and smile to myself.
Saying,
I know this girl.
I know her.
She'll ring hearts of envy
because she'll rise above it all
I know her.
Her strengths outshine it all.
I know her.
I see her.
i see her in the future
I see her as the shining star.
I see her as the inspiration
I see her as the idol.
I know her.
She'll be there.
She'll reach the top.
She'll accomplish more than glory
more than one has known
more than one has seen
she'll shine through it all.
lets make way.
the star has risen
one with pure faith
one with firm beliefs
the pure ideals
nothing tainted
I know her.
I see her.
She's the guiding star.
She'll go very far.
Very, very far.
And I'll sit and smile.
because I know you. :)